Yesterday was school speech day.I had had choir performance.I was very pissed off by the fact that they ask us to wait so long on stage before singing.We are like idiots listening to CO playing.You know,being stare at by the whole bunch of people, don't feel good.It make me thought of the 'Freak Show'. In the past when it was still legal, it was being set up to earn money.The show was performed by people who look grotesque and very weird.For example like people who had two heads,very short arms,disabled people..will be enclosed in an enclosure and sort of showcase there to entertain audience.Sometimes,the disabled were being force to performed.It was very cruel.The owner is using them to earn a sum.They are like slave.Very sad.But now,since it was not legal anymore i should't write about this.(actually, back in indonesia,there still have this kind of show i think.)Back to the subject of being stare at on the stage without performing.It was awkward!Anyway, jing yu and me skipped choir to go to citylink.Since Jing yu like transparent thing,she bought the happy house pencil box at precious moments.I bought a two shirts for my darling and a top for myself.i'm obsessed in buying things.I also bought a sunglasses at Mango that cost about 35 bucks only! Luckily i din't buy the $60 one.Haha..I saw a myuk limited edition wallet.Thinking of asking a few people to share the cost of it for alvin's bday present. But, since someone suggested buying underwear for him,maybe we should.Haha..I know,i know, i must save! So from today onwards, i must save 5 bucks n spent only 4!hee...So in 1 month time, i will have 150 bucks.2 months i will have 300 bucks.Then i can buy a wallet.Haha..Erm or i should take money from my parents?! But it seems unfillial..Haha.. Labels: Starts school
I love food.It was not my fault that i was skinny, it is just that the stomach of mine have limited capacity.I don't like my skinny wrist, i don't look good putting on watch and bracelets.I want to have big boobs and butt and a killer body actually.Haha..But there's nothing wrong with runway model figure because, the perveted kopitiam uncle and the guy in their adolencence won't gogle at it. Labels: Starts school
大头贴
Holidays is over.Erm, is actually over 4 days ago! But never mind, i still can turn back the time for a bit to write my previous entries! Hee..Anyway i was very busy during march holidays to blog, so i left all of it to now.Last thursday,friday and saturday, i went down to the SPH to attend the young reporter orientation.It was quite fun.We attend talks,play games,mingle with one another and eat! I make quite a few friends from all over the island.I was in Ruiying group.There were about 19 people in my group and most of them were from China, only 1 singaporeans, 1 spore pr and one from Nyanmmar.They were all very talented who came from good school like Nanhua,Rv,Nanyang girls..I felt a bit intimidated and ashamed at first, but slowly when i get to know the others, i felt that,actually they are of no difference with us 'normal'.Haha..The seniors are all very friendly.Especially Cheng Yao who show alot of care and concern to us newbies.Others may think that anything to do with chinese language was a dread,boring and 'vintage',but the truth is that, it is a matter of how the chinese language was being phrased, teach and regarded.Hee..From now on, i hope that the school will have many special event for us(me and the other girl from sec2) to write, so that our report will be on the Zaobao always and the most important thing is, so that MONEY will come our way.Haha.. Labels: Starts school
Ok fine! Now i became the evil mistress and you are the damsel in distress or should i say the demure,innocent lamb? Haha..How wonderful! I get it, i will always be the bad guy. Even if i did something heavenly good, you people will just think i did it out of profit or something else.Just because I don't look angelic like some other people,and not of a good behavior, it doesn't mean i am plain bad.While,some people didn't even need to put in any effort to look sweet and kind.Unfair isn't it.LOOKS CAN DECIEVE! We will never know who are wolves under sheeps clothing!Those who know will understand what i mean.Read between the lines guy! Haha.. Labels: march holiday
向月葵 Labels: march holiday
I really do not know where to start. Let's start wif my results.I was not happy with it.Totally not happy! I failed 4 subjects and passed 4.Balanced i guess but not my best!Haiz..I just could not do my best in everything! I was quite depressed.. Labels: march holiday
Yesterday i went to tiong bahru to catch a movie "Just follow law" with my darling.It was very very hilarious! I was laughing like hell! Not only me, the whole theatre of people were laughing! It's funny when Fann wong squeezed her boobs! Haha..This time i've got to praised her,she was a very good and professional actress!Haha... Labels: Starts school
Finally the most awaited moment have come and that is waiting for common test to be over!! Yeah! The most worrying paper was finished today! Im not going to ace it definitely..Haiz..After every math paper, i will feel that there's no hope for me anymore.So sad! I can't help it if i was lousy in math right! I work so hard but cannot improve it any bit so i shall not study for math anymore! Some people just born with a math brain but i am not, so i shall not compare with those who are good in it! I will surely lose! Haha.. Labels: Starts school
Today Miss Tan changed our seats.I'm sitting with Ying En now.Reina was beside me.Yeah yeah..hee..I was thinking she was arranging us according to the weakness and strongest in math. I am damn weak in both mathes, so maybe i was sitting with Ying en because she was very good in math, and she can help me improve it.Hee..Anyway, i was just guessing.I was tired.This saturday have choir practice again and i must also go SPH. Should i choose 1 to go?! Haha..Busy..I've got the friendship day report to write too! Arghh..
5:11 AM.
" Friday, March 23, 2007
Just now, on the way to the school toilet, i saw a senior cleaner about the age of 65 carrying two big trash bag and was walking down the stairs very slowly.He seems to have difficulty in doing so.But no one seems interested in helping him.At that time i was so upset and my heart was in my throat .I felt very bad of not helping him,it was a sin.Oh man.It was a overwhelming sight for me.I felt very sad and symphatise the uncle.Imagine if you was old and you are doing these hardwork without anyone's help.He even have difficulty in walking!Why must the school hire senior citizens?!Even if the government say senior citizens must have an assets to the society,must they really do it? it seems cruel to make them work!It was a feeling that's tough for me to potray it out by words.First-experience and you know what i'm talking about.By the way, i am writing this not because i wanted people to see how kind and caring i am but to let the people outside see the truth, to understand how selfish we are actually.
6:40 AM.
" Thursday, March 22, 2007
五人拍的大头贴被微笑的那一幕给照亮的好温暖好亲切
但一张大头贴有可以真明什么呢？它所记录下来的只不过是外表和暂时的心情。。。。。。
同样是微笑的脸,同样是露出了快乐表情,但心灵的感受只有自己了解
虽然五人是好友不过也是彼此的敌人
每晚，夜深人静一滴滴的泪水为谁流？为谁而感到心里一阵阵的刺痛？为谁而觉得失望和遗憾？到底是为了何人而让五人失去光彩？
原来是无人的友情,一条透明的线仿佛穿过彼此五人一心, 让他们心灵相通五人一心
只有在乎的人才会去为对方落泪只有在乎的人才会去关心大头贴上的那两个字‘朋友’是唯一真实的
5:33 AM.
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Because of this orientation, i miss choir practice for 3 days out of the 5.I feel quite bad in doing so, but i no choice and anyway, i have had an excuse of not turning up.
I was really stressed by school work.With the uncompleted physics project, the upcoming syf and the unworking brain of mine to figure out the thing with A maths, i felt like a person who had just been out in the wild for 100 years.Or like Robinson Crusoe out at the beach living a damn hell difficult life!I would like to have some entertaiment please god!hee..Terrible!
I felt so pissed being force to sectionals! I can gladly and proudly declare that i was very good in singing already so why must i go to the sectionals when even the sectionals leaders was no better than me?! Those who are reading this please don't make any comments if you all don't know who or how good am i.Hee.. I seems damn arrogant and complacent isn't it? You all are thinking that"Man, this girl are so thick skin!"right?Haha, i am like that.If i am not good, i won't ever say i am good! Haha..Who will?Blaaa..
Stressed man!
2:32 AM.
" Wednesday, March 14, 2007
2:03 AM.
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宁静的夜晚，在野外，有一朵向月葵在盛开。它趁着半夜，同伴们正熟睡时，偷偷地爬起来，对着月光许愿。
“月光啊，月光。。。 。。。你是希望的光芒，美梦的圣主，我好寂寞。”
一阵风吹过吹过了野草使它们来回摆动吹过了在熟睡的向日葵，但他们一动也不动，仿佛真的进入甜蜜的梦乡。风也吹过了向月葵，吹过它的花瓣和枝叶，吹穿它那小小的心灵。突然让它感到冷风的威力，让它望见日光。
“月光啊，月光。。。 。。。 好希望会有多一朵的向月葵，好让我吸收光和热，好让我有朋友相伴，得到温暖。““月光啊，月光。。。 。。。好希望会有多一朵的向月葵来消除我的寂寞，了解我的心声。陪我走向未来的道路，帮助我读过种种的难关。彼此的温情和温暖，可以暖和一个冰冻的夜晚。寂寞消失了，冷淡溜走了，那不是很好吗？”
向月葵期望着，期望它的心愿能实现。
5:53 AM.
" Friday, March 09, 2007
Someone's blog mention about gossiping.I was not very happy about what that person say.Maybe she/he was a saint, not gossiping, kind and everything, but they shouldn't make comments about it.If the writer claimed to be that good(even though they never really phrased it out only from her tone) then the more they shouldn't post it.I know the person was only trying to speak their mind, but they must also understand that, people will feel pissed by what the post said.Please be considerate and don't be self-centered.The world not only revolves around you but us too.Try to care about others feeling and don't speak anything without crossing your mind.Certain words,phrase,sentence and even tone, can hurt us!! Can spark off conflict! Remember, the world is everyones'.
I felt that,being who i am, is a bliss. I have a good family without problems, i have everything that i wanted, i feel so privilege that i wanted to puke.Sometimes, a brat,a snob is how i regarded myself. People around me have problems and i don't know.They may be perfect in my eyes, but actually, they are not.
3:22 AM.
" Sunday, March 04, 2007
After the movie, my darling went home as he got tuition, so alicia,felicia,farrah and me went to great world city.I bought a belt at Zara, it was in pink with a large butterfly in front.It was nice! Quite artistic.People like me who wears it,will bring out the elegantness of the belt more! Haha..
Then we met jingyu and tiffany at fareast.We went shop shop.I couldn't believe tiffy and jy could manage to stay there for so long.ERm, and the toilet too..Haha..Im the end, i ending up buying shoe again! There's discount you see, so who can resist the temptation?! Hee..I definitely can't! Now, felicia,alicia,farrah,reina,jingyu,tiffany and me have the same shoes! Haha..So funny!
Today, i recieved a call from the Singapore Press Holdings to ask me to go down for an interview.At first i thought they called the wrong person, then i remembered last week Yang meh meh ask us to write an essay for the lian he zao bao thingy, then i was elated! Blah, cannot believe our good luck! (since alvin also got choosen..) Yeah! Pretty happy!
3:13 AM.
" Friday, March 02, 2007
Yeah i got 33/50 for chem! So happy that i got a chocolate!! haha..but it's a bit sweet, so i ate a bit then gave aaron..Hee..Needless to say, aaron got the highest for chem again! Blah, don't how many highest he wanted to get! Haha..For Lit paper, i'd got 18/25.It's quite ok..hee..